Silent Tears

May 13, 2018 by Violet Benson

Sitting here, thinking about it all

It’s like hanging off a cliff and I’m about to fall

Feeling so empty, but that’s nothing new

I’ve been depressed all day and the day before that too

For all that I’ve loved, it seems like I’ve loved alone

My heart is barley beating as it’s turning into stone

If I had to sit and think of all the things I love

My name wouldn’t be something that I would even think of

How could I be so lost, when it seems like I’ve got it all

No matter how much I have, I can’t help but feel so small

I wish I could explain all this pain that I’m feeling

Focusing on the negative, there’s just no time for healing

So broken on the inside, I just want to cry

But when I’m around my friends, I just smile nod and lie

It’s becoming such a burden, how much I’m holding in

I want to let it out, but I don’t know where to begin

I want to speak up, hoping you’ll set me free

But these silent tears I’m crying, no one can rescue me

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7 COMMENTS
  • Mckenna
    May 14, 2018 / Reply

    Thank you for sharing. Your story speaks for 1000s of people. Your posts help me laugh at myself and this post is also incredibly relatable. Thank you for using your platform to create awareness of mental health issues. Sharing your personal writing is so brave! Sending respect and support ❤️

  • Dave
    May 14, 2018 / Reply

    Violet,
    I’m a 52 year old caring daddy and recently separated husband (of nearly 30 yrs) from someone with mental health issues. (it’s the reason we’re divorcing) My advice: Get pro help before 30 years goes by. There’s tons o great help avail. It’ll change your life 4 the better. =)
    Truly,
    //D

  • Dori
    May 14, 2018 / Reply

    You’re not alone, because I feel it too. Darkness and Dread are two friends we have in common…..friends that we would never admit to having (“secret” friends). Essentially, we are ashamed of them b/c well, they suck. They always overstay their welcome and leech off of our souls. You’re not alone.

  • Dave
    May 14, 2018 / Reply

    Just read your other post. And uh, sounds like you have ~it~ under control. (what I get for reading a ONE post) Let me just sign off by thanking YOU for your wicked-funny. I’m a recent fan and your funny bone has actually helped me smile through a weird time of impending divorce.
    See: =)
    ox

  • Jr
    May 15, 2018 / Reply

    That was awesome and excatly how it feels

  • L.M
    June 18, 2018 / Reply

    Hits the nail on the head. As sad as it is true, it’s reassuring to know that I’m not the only who feels like this.

  • Melissa
    June 24, 2018 / Reply

    I love you. you are not alone